It doesn’t matter where you are at in your life, you are there for a reason. A lesson to be learned, a person to meet that will forever change your life, an event that you are supposed to be a part of, none of us know but there is a reason. Things happen in life that we don’t ask for or that we don’t look for but they happen.
There are days when I really would like to run away from my life but then I stop and look at all the good that is there. It definitely out weighs the bad. Yeah it can get tough and I need a break but I go for a walk or go to my safe place and I sit quietly and search my heart and I know it will all be okay.
One thing that I have learned over the years is that getting mad and bitchy doesn’t do anything but make a bad situation worse. I have had times when anger management classes would have probably been a really good thing. But as life has carried on and years have gone by, I often wonder if I was mad at me or if I was mad at the situation. All too often we blame the situation when if we actually looked at ourselves and our own reactions we should be mad at the real culprit.
I did fire back at the lady in my photoshop class yesterday. Knowing that she doesn’t like her life, her relationship status, or that she had to leave a church family that she loved to take care of an aging mother. But when it came down to analyzing it, she has been unhappy all semester and barked at everyone. A church family that you love does not mean that you have learned from that church. An ailing parent is hard work and is demanding and some days takes every ounce of energy you can muster. Being the unconventional student isn’t easy either it takes way more hands than I have to juggle it all some days. So, it isn’t like I don’t understand this woman. I just choose to handle the situation different.
I am not justifying for her by no means or for my response to her. Just being factual. Life is too short and people leave it way too quickly to be that anger monster. You have to seek happiness and let it in before you can be happy. Choose your battles as my mother in law used to say. Boy did I ever think that I would quote that!! She was so right though!!
I have also learned that when I am feeling that I need to vent that it is so much better to seek out someone that needs a smile and provide that than to bark at the world. That is why I tell people to touch lightly, that is why I make sure to tell people that I love them, and why I laugh so much. Laughter and a smile opens way more doors than anger and hate.
If you have to put it in God’s hands, or give it back to Mother Nature, or what ever you want to believe in I have a tendency to write it on a piece of paper and then burn it but which ever you choose…get rid of the negative and make room for more positive!!