A new time in life is dawning like the morning sun in Central Texas. Quietly it comes and if you are not standing there at the exact moment she is gone like the whisper on the wind. Life is like that, you either reach out and grab what you can at that exact moment or it is lost forever. Or is it? There is always another sunrise tomorrow maybe not the same one but one just as miraculous. There are other loves, there are other opportunities, and there are other paths that we will wonder down in life.
Up to this point in life I have very few foes, so if I happen to get murdered…there is really no telling who did it. I will say this, I have come away from the foes in my life with lessons learned. I may not have liked the scars on my heart but the experience was not a loss. For in these battles I have learned that I am a very strong willed person, I have the ability to over come and the passion to persevere. There are bad things in my past that I would not wish on anyone but they do not make me any more special than anyone else. What makes me special is that I trusted in God and he brought me to the other side.
I make friends and acquaintance fairly easily. Good friends I generally keep for long periods of time if not forever. My Daddy told me that if you have one true friend and one true love in your lifetime that you were very lucky. I must be so very lucky. Maybe not in the aspect of love but I have many true friends. Friends that if you were in trouble they would be there no matter what time day or night. If you called in the middle of the night crying, they would listen for as long as it took to get the whole problem solved. I have had friends that have stood by me through thick and thin, unafraid to tell me that I was messing up or that I wasn’t being true to myself or anyone else. I have people in my life that could probably write my biography better than I could. These wonderful friends have given me courage when I was afraid, solace when my world seemed to be falling apart, and laughter when the crying was done. All of my friends have added to the idea of a family unit. We are sisters, brothers, aunts and uncles. Not by blood mind you but by heart and soul.
Technology has brought into my life people from my past that I thought lost forever. I thank God daily for this here computer and the amazing things it can bring into my life and the people that it can return to my life.
Today I ventured to San Angelo to take care of some school business. I did some shopping and had lunch with friends. I cannot explain the feelings I have nor do I want to. I just enjoy them for I know somehow I have found home. How do you explain that? How do you “know” in your very being that what you are embarking on is totally right? A peace that I have not felt in so very long washes over me every time I am there. It isn’t just the town, the people, the school but something beyond a time and place. I have spent years praying that God would show me where I belonged what purpose I have in being. If I could imagine what it would be like for God to take my hand and lead me to that answer I feel it now. It is an absolutely magnificent feeling that words cannot express.
I am even more excited about the start of this semester now!!